Tag Archives: Faith

What happens when you fail?

25 May

Failure. Not sure anyone enjoys failure. I mean, we all know we will fail in life at some point. Some of us, more than others. But, if we know that failure will come, the more important question to ask is, what will we DO with our failure? What will we do when we fail?

For some people, it’s as easy as dusting off the old hands & moving on to the next thing. For others, it’s a bit more redundant…they keep doing the same thing over & over again. Failing each time. Possibly succeeding at the same thing they’ve been doing so many times. And for some, failure devastates them. It crushes them. So much that they are afraid to ever try again. At anything.


“Failure is not falling down but refusing to get up.” ~Chinese Proverb


For years, I would try so hard to be the best at whatever I did that failure just wasn’t something that happened to me. Or so I thought. I guess every time I would “catch wind” of my impending defeat, I would stop doing whatever I was doing & reside from the process. I figured if I just “quit”, then it wouldn’t count as failure. If I just gave up, I could find some excuse for why I wasn’t interested in that route anymore. So, in my mind, I never failed. I just conveniently quit.


To fail is a natural consequence of trying. To succeed takes time & prolonged effort in the face of unfriendly odds. To think it will be any other way, no matter what you do, is to invite yourself to be hurt & to limit your enthusiasm for trying.

~David Viscott


Sure, there are plenty of things I have succeeded at. We all have accomplished something in our lives. No matter how big or small…successes are around us. However, when I look at what I have succeeded in…they are things that I could do. Yes, they were things that I knew if I just made up my mind, I had a decent amount of talent to succeed at. But, the things I quit? Ugh, they were things that I knew I couldn’t do. At least not on my own. You see, I have this problem with being in control of myself & my world. I surround myself with activities & concepts that I WILL succeed at. I create my own “challenges” for myself…but if I am painfully honest; my challenges are built on what I know I truly can do in the first place.

So, where does this leave me? What does this mean for someone like me? The answer? I DON’T KNOW. Yes, Staci, for once in her life doesn’t have an answer. I am terrified. Honestly, I am frustrated, ashamed, angry at the lies I have been telling myself all these years. Don’t get me wrong, what I have been successful doing…I really enjoy & has been extremely meaningful. But, the problem with this realization is that I feel like I am starting all over again. I feel like I did after I turned 18 &  moved out of my parents’ house. The potential for success, greatness, uniqueness…it was at my fingertips. The world was mine to discover.  This time, however, I am looking out over my life & what is to come with a different reality. I now have a husband & 3 little children who need me as I need them. And this life; the opportunities for greatness in God…I want my whole family to be a part of something beautiful. What is to come…it isn’t just for me. It’s for all of us. It’s my way to give back to God…ALL of me. Not just my shortcomings, not just my control, not just my sorry realities. No, giving God the good in me, too. My talents. My passions. My everything.

You see, I have realized that failure isn’t about what I’ve failed at or where I’ve fallen from. It is about what I do after I have failed or fallen. We all know what the fate would be for a baby who never got back up when he fell as he was learning to walk.  He would never experience a life of new opportunity. He would never experience a different perspective. We all know that it would be no fun to crawl on our hands & knees through the rough terrain…the rocky areas. Nor would it be very fun to always experience all life has to offer & the beauty of it crawling with our heads down. But, how often do we choose to crawl? How often do we stop trying…not realizing that if we just kept trying…we’d be able to walk & experience a whole new perspective for life? We need strength & a steady footing to get through the rough patches &  difficulties in life.  As well as strength to fully enjoy the best things in life. We will never learn how to be strong if we just give up. We will never learn who we are if we never try.

So, in celebration of my 33rd birthday today, I am letting go. I will do all that I can to allow God to make me who he wants me to be. Not who I think I should be or who I think I could  be for that matter. I’ve got to be honest enough to admit that who I am right now & who I’ve become isn’t working anymore. And what a beautiful birthday gift I am giving to myself. More God…less of me. 🙂

“My imperfections & failures are as much a blessing from God as my successes & my talents & I lay them both at his feet.” ~Ghandi


Francis Chan: Why We Can’t Afford To Get Hell Wrong.

21 May

I have always appreciated the writings & speakings of Francis Chan. I just wanted to share a video from him about his upcoming book. Really looking forward to his wisdom. 🙂